Calm and sadness

Do not think that love, in order to be genuine, has to be extraordinary.  What we need is to love without getting tired. - Mother Teresa

Yet again, my restorative yoga class has brought to me more than a good feeling in my body but also a feeling of calm in my heart.  Not quite even an hour before class, Laurie called me and told me that she had receive an email saying our friend Bob, from church had taken his own life on Tuesday.  We know Bob, and his wife Marguerite because we are in similar situations and have shared inspiration from God.  Marguerite has very bad MS.  She's been wheelchair bound for awhile now and in the last few months, she has deteriorated to need much more care.  A little less than a year ago, both Bob and I were asked to talk during Mass about respecting life and how precious life is to us. In an email conversation shortly after he says to me "Marguerite and I are honored and blessed that God brought you into our lives.  God does this sort of thing with reckless abandon (hope God laughs out loud), and our physical being at times doesn't recognize it happening.  Only when we start to understand our spiritual being is when we humans begin to grasp what God gives us every day of our lives."  Every time that I saw him, he would always find the time to come up to me and give me a huge Bob-hug and ask me truthfully how things where going.  I am so sad that he felt that he had no other option but to commit suicide.  Laurie and I can only think he had a moment of irrationality that Marguerite would receive better care by receiving Social Security Disability upon his death.  She wouldn't qualify by herself.  I hope he knew how much he was loved and I am so sad at our loss.  The quote by Mother Teresa, Mary read during our savasana pose this evening.  It made me think quite a bit about my relationship with Laurie.  It's the everyday little things that add up to genuine love and not so much the large overdone things.  It really calmed me down from the overwhelming sadness.  I feel so deeply for the loss that Marguerite is enduring and I hope she will remember the little things that showed love between the two of them.  Please pray for both Bob and Marguerite.